BIG DAY TOMORROW: Day 55 19th January, 2012
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(Cycle 3: Day 14)
Tomorrow is the big day… my LAST chemo injection. The last 3 months are a blur. I remember sitting in hospital just after my first cycle began. I was throwing up violently and thinking “How will I get through this?” I remember being 4 or 5 days in, feeling terrible and all I could think was “58 more days??? I don’t think I can do this”. And here I am, tomorrow I get my last injection. This chapter is almost closed.
It’s nice knowing what to expect. Bloods taken. Meet doc. Head home. Get a phone call. Head back to hospital. Get jag. Head home. Wait 4-6 hrs. Feel a wee bit flu-ey (and I really don’t get this very badly at all). Take paracetamol. Go to bed. Feel fine the next day.
But that’s me! The treatment is almost over.
This whole blog-it-all-don’t-hold-back has been a strange but eye-opening experience. I’ve always been a fairly private person. I share what I want to share and I keep the rest to myself. With this process it was clear that I needed to put that aside and be an OPEN BOOK. God said: “the louder you shout it, the more glory I get”. And so I’ve shouted loud. I’ve held nothing back. I’ve been more open and vulnerable than is comfortable… but you know what? The response has been overwhelming. I’ve received so many messages from people explaining how God has used this tough season in my life to draw them closer to Him… what more could I want?
“My power is made perfect in your weakness”
says God. And it sure is. May I always shout my weakness loudly so that His power will be seen in all it’s perfection.
To Him be the glory!
There is that Glory word again…
) He is to be praised for sure.