Work in Progress

It's not until someone asks me a question about going to Multnomah, and I try to explain all the various factors that make me sure I'm doing the right thing, that I begin to see just how much I have seen God move in my life! I have had confirmations that make this path 100% clear. I've had divine contacts, and divine appointments that I find hard to believe actually happened, let alone the people I'm explaining them to. And I'm filled with a passion and excitement that I never knew I could feel.

But for the last few days I have been struck once again by the idea of "transparency". Do I let people see into my life? Someone commented recently

"from all of this is it so obvious you are called. I never get confirmations like that in my own life, and so I often feel that God isn't in what I do"

someone else said:

"I wish I could have the same passion you do. Your life seems perfect"

And so once again I'm faced with a dilemma. I love explaining to people the wonderful things I see God doing in me, and to reveal to them my passion and excitement for God, but at the same time I give them an impression that I'm "superhuman".

It is in our weakness that God is shown to be strong. And I guess I'm guilty of being transparent in strengths, and not so with my weaknesses, painting a view of my life that shows me to be better than I am!

Indeed… I have many flaws, and many weaknesses. I often debate in my head if Paul was right when he wrote "i am the worst of sinners"… a title that I often think is mine. "I, Scott Burns, am the worst of sinners". I am far, far from perfect, but I live each day in the joyful knowledge that through Christ's death and resurrection I can stand blameless in the presence of God. Through the blood of Jesus I am made new, and my sins are wiped clean… and it is because of this that I live passionately committed to following Him.

God is challenging me once again to be like Christ, by being open about my weaknesses… so that when God does move in my life, His glory shines even brighter!

I am the worst of sinners, yet I am called to serve. God alone is my strength.